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yayaya BOOMBAYAH ❤

BlackPink - Boombayah. 

I'm sure many is aware of this new YG's girl group and their new song.. I'm in love with it and I thought I want to share it on my blog. :) 

Also, I thought I should share some of my thoughts I am having right now.. ~^^~

It doesn't matter how you physically but it is what's inside you that determines your beauty. 

Yes, it isn't easy for me.. I do not have the courage to head out alone. I mind the way people look or stare at me because I am not blind nor deaf and I cannot ignore what I see or heard whenever I go out.. the damage cannot be undone. I do not blame them.. but like I said, the recent passing of my loved ones made an impact on me and I changed the way I view things.. etc etc.. I have not done anything wrong to myself. I am not anorexic. Those who knows or have friends like these will know I'm not. 

But what's more important is the confidence one have. 

So what if one doesn't look as attractive or as appealing.. that does not determine anything because one day all of us will grow old.. ultimately, no matter how good you look, if you have a bad personality or character people will shun you. 

Life is short, it'll be over in a glimpse of an eye. No one can predict the future, at least not most of us.. unless you have got some supernatural powers.. you will not know when's the next minute you vanish from the Earth suddenly.. so, cherish the ones around you. Stop the hate. Be nice, be kind to one another and the Earth's a beautiful place. 

明明知道他不是那个他，却还执着，抱着一丝希望。

为什么那么傻？

When deep inside you know he's not the one, yet you still stubbornly hold on to that thought, that one tiny chance. Why are you so silly?

I've always believed that no one should deserve to be mistreated in a relationship.. never verbally or physically abused.. etc etc.. a girlfriend or wife, is for you to dote on, to love.. not for your needs.. Even after marriage, one should trust and respect the other. 

不要把一切当成理所当然。说得很简单，要做到却很难。

Everyone has a bottom line for everything. 

I try so hard, to convince myself otherwise.. fingers crossed my choice right at the start was right, but as time passes, you showed me otherwise. Life is cruel and reality is harsh.. I no longer feel like you cherish me.. you treat me the way I should rightfully be. Whenever I tried to tell you how I feel, you'd always push me away. I couldn't feel your desire to prove me my choice was right. 

我也有父母生的。I've done what I could.. but, have you spared a thought for me.. the things you've done.. 你真的爱我吗？ 

很多时候，我发现也许我们根本就不适合。每当你骂我，和我吵的时候。我一直都没说什么。。但总是被你误解。。心好痛。

Let's not talk about it anymore.

Recently, I have been suffering from sudden giddiness.. on and off.. pretty often.. I could feel my body feel tired easily.. 

Inner me.

It's raining right now, over at my area. What a perfect weather.. 

I've been feeling rather down lately.. faking a disguise.. like its fine.

It ain't the first time, I cried in my sleep.. it started since I lost my mum.. it did again and this time it lasted a little longer. Even when I woke, I teared. There isn't anything one can do, nothing can bring her back anymore. I miss her, I definitely do.

现在的我，越来越忧郁。

爸爸更忙了，很难见到他。

就算件了，也不知道该和他说些什么。

Recently, I've been having nightmares.. or whatever you call it.. related to my kins who have just passed away in the recent years. 我想，是我还放不下。

Image from Rachell Tan
Featuring dress and bag from FASHIONBLOGGERRR

Dress:  Mika Off-shoulder Shirt Dress

They have really nice stuff but a pity I think they are kinda pricey. :l

Anyway, I finally layed my paws on this Loreal Paris Lucent Magique Cushion Glow Blush.

What's so unique is that, you can't find this shade in Singapore. 'P3 Rose Affair'.

I chance upon it on youtube, on Kelly Yang. It's really gorgeous, in this natural light shade of pink.. but you gotta have fair skin I guess. I like how the cushion blush turns out, I'm a fan! Should have gotten more.. :( 

I also got this Miniso Headphones via ezbuy (previously known as 65daigou) prime service.. its priced at 49RMB, so after converting its around S$10.54.. but when I checked the Miniso local store here in Singapore.. they are retailed at S$24.90.. That's huge savings I've saved up right there.

It's definitely the real deal here. Exactly the same as the one I see in store. Love it, its very comfortable.. Many headphones out there are kinda tight fitted so it may cause pain after some time.

New Loots x July 2016

Hello, good day to all. 

So I finally found pretty gorgeous casings for my Samsung S7 Edge.. It's pretty difficult to find pretty casings as many cute or pretty ones I see are all for Apple Iphones. I'm so in love with my current phoen casing and all it took was an instax / polaroid photo at the back of the casing to personalise my casing. chio max! 

Just in case you were wondering, I got it from Taobao and the seller had very good service as well as many other pretty casings! 

TAOBAO LINK

The link above is for my casing design which they have in different colours and models. Priced at approximately SGD5-6 bucks. CHEAP TTM for such quality! 

- more updates/edits to come -

050716 - throwback :)

So lets start off today's post with this song.. I fell in love with. 

MP魔幻力量 - 我還是愛著你 I still love you

celebrate bae's birthday with his family. :) 

Been into infused water for quite some time now and I really love how it dissolves in the water over time. 

For those who really hate drinking water.. try this.. there are many recipes available on the web, just google for it.. or you can just add whatever u like.. 

I get ice trays from Daiso and make them in the form of ice cubes so its more convenient that way. 

random emo thoughts + mini haul - pens ;

cause bae has duty and won't be able to book out even during the weekends..

It just suddenly struck on me that my Sundays are no longer the same. well, not exactly just Sundays but.. its getting unbearable.. I still get emotional at points out of no where when I get reminded of my mum.. and I try hard to control my tears. 

My Sundays used to be reserved for family.. cause I have to go to Grandma's with my mum. but .. not anymore.. cause the 2 most important females in my life are no longer around. 

Yes, its reality and a harsh fact that I can't get used to.. not anytime soon. 

It's hard to put into words how this whole journey's like.. for those who haven't had any clue how this may feel like.. cause everyone has different stories, experiences in life .. blah blah blah.. but the one thing for sure, mothers are the most important person in your life. Definitely. 

It feels empty. I hate it. Sometimes I'd love some alone time.. but.. its hurting me quite bad too. 

I find it hard to talk about to others.. about this because .. life is not just about me and my life. I believe everyone's got their own stories,problems and stuff.. so I can't rant it to anyone else all the time.. I'm an introvert and has a super duper quiet personality.. probably the reason why it is hard for me to meet my friends up in times of need. 

Cause lets face it.. everyone's got their own lives, and unless money drops from the sky.. no one's gonna be able to be a the beck of your call all the time. 

still sick.. haven't recovered and I know its 2 weeks plus already.. :( 

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So I also DIY a fairy lights jar awhile back and I finally took the time to stick washi / masking tape over the battery case cause its really a pain in the eye in the jar.. to make things better. Of course I did it in a way I could still on and off the lights and also switch batteries as and when I need. 

:PRETTYAE: ♥

Last but not least, just wanna share my 'mini' haul from taobao. 

So a video I did today on a mini haul from taobao..

Bought the super kawaii Uni Style Fit colour pens that would have cost quite a bomb, considering they are just pens.... that has Hello Kitty / Little Twin Stars / My Melody prints. If I didn't remember wrongly it is also limited edition when I checked out a local bookstore.. that retailed just the refills itself SGD2+.. 

What I love about this series is that they have so many different colours.. if you check out the normal version (not the sanrio ones).. and they have it in different 'thickness' !!!! 0.28, 0.38, 0.5, 0.7 and 1.0! They even have a mechanical pencil version and the best part is you get to customise which ones you want in your own pen holders that comes in 3 or 5.. major love please.. been using them for quite a few years already.. 

*note: 

not a sponsored post. just sharing cause I think its a great product.

thoughts on replay ♪~

I wonder if anyone else faces this as well.. 

when someone says something and it haunts you so much so.. 

its on replay in your mind every day..

I really hate worrying over every little thing.. 

but I feel so helpless.. 

Selfie I took on Mothers Day 2016. 

真的有点想她。

It often crosses my mind what life would be like if shes still around.

I haven't had enough of her laughters, hugs and the cute goofy her when she unknowingly cracks jokes.. 

Humans are like that ain't they. 

You don't cherish when you have something, and only regrets when you lose them. 

如果我有什么遗憾，那就是我的存在。#负担

I've been hesitating to post or ask this.. 

what would you do if you know you have a limited time span left.. 

Actually, there is so much I want to do.. I want to help out by volunteering.. the old and needy in Singapore.. but given my condition.. it is difficult for me as there are no lifts or whatsoevers and you have to climb stairs to distribute the rations. 

last but not least, sorry for the emo post. 

My Adelaide Trip 2016 - Part 2

Here's my part 2 update for my trip to Adelaide. 

As it was rather inconvenient for us to head out during the weekdays I didn't really get to explore much .. especially when you have a baby to handle as well.. nevertheless I'm still glad I went. 

I really love the weather and place there.. the people are friendly and I feel comfortable there. Since the day's short there and you have almost everything closing at 5pm.. we spend most of the time at home during night time. So there's no Burger King there, its called Hungry Jacks and neither do you have Starbucks. :3 .. Love the variations of iced tea over there called fuze tea.. similar to our Pokka kinda thing ?

Right, so I just realised I forget to snap or video the 'chinatown' in Adelaide. It's an interesting place I would say. Love the way the "market" is there! 

I am back for some time now and has been rather busy lately.. so let the pictures do the talking :)

Selfie // Lavender Farm

 Random snap of the street view.. cause its pretty

Autumn - look at the treees. LOVE.  

Pretty stuff in the shop, which happens to also sell candles but was closed.

View from up above in the helicoptor. 

Of course, selfie with the pilot. Unforgettable experience!

Selfie with this camera friendly horse who walked towards me during my snaps! 

Tearo Estate - Food and wine = Yumyum! 

Birds in Heaven Winery 

 

 Hahndorf - German Village

OTW to some chinese restaurant for dimsum. 

*music credit to K Will - Talk Love

Last but not least, I managed to watch ' The Royal Edinburgh Military Tattoo Melbourne 2016' on TV. It was amazing! Check it out on youtube.. here's a sneak preview of 1 of the shows. They are selling the DVD for the full show as well.. omgs. seriously, check out all the formation, marching etc. NEAT!

My Adelaide Trip Part 1 - 2016

its been awhile .. 

I'm currently in Adelaide, South Australia.. to visit my sister as she has just given birth to a baby boy.

I love the weather here.. not sure about summer though.. the place and all.. of course there are pro and cons.. like I still prefer some food in Singapore.. that is not available here.. for example, petai, soursop and durian.. and all the local delights.

Last but not least, very grateful to my sister who has whipped up a lot of dishes and tonics to nurse my health.. and the special care she has given.. not forgetting my 姐夫.. and the troubles they had to go through.. 

I've learnt quite a bit, and it is definitely not easy bringing a baby around.. Thank you so much for showing me around as well.. really appreciate everything. 

So, here are some updates from me..

Selfie cause that's my first with a fireplace [sweat] 

Selfie for rememberance of the beautiful red leaves in Autumn (my first)

ikr. another selfie >.> while waiting for lunch.. in a cafe in Hahndorf. 

Some Thai 5* restaurant that I feel has been aussie-fied.  

 Yipee! Selfie with Patoot the moomin and my cute in-house boots.

I'm officially an aunt. He's such a sweetie, cutie and smartie ~

Selfie .. here in Adelaide.. love the weather here, definitely. 

One of my favourite dish - brussel sprouts w mushrooms.

goodbye grandma.

阿麻过世了。

25 Jan 2015.. 

It's undeniable that I do miss her.. but I think this is a better alternative cause it really pains everyone to see her suffering.. she did all her life.. 

Memories flooded my mind, the every moments I had with her.. 

我尽量不去想，因为不舍。It isn't easy letting go of someone you love. Of course, I do understand that life and death is part and parcel of life.. but when it happens, it's not easy accepting she's no longer there..

My one and only, beloved grandma.. 走好。不需要再受尽折磨与孤独。

Be at ease cause everything's the way you hope it'd be. 

I really miss you.. there's so much I wanted to do for you. but they were not within my means. 

I'll pray for you, like I always did.. 只希望你会快乐。

当时间慢慢的流失，我一直挣扎着。

有好多话想告诉你，却开不了口。

想一直陪着你，却无能为力。

Life.

This is gonna be another emo blogpost.. just a heads up to  those who may want to skip this post.

Just went to visit grandma earlier just now. Her condition is deteriorating.  It hurts to see her in so much pain.. just like how mummy suffered.. 

I hate myself, for being unable to express how I feel inside.. I want her to know.. how much she meant to me.. and I really hate to see her suffer.. I just want her to get peace.. she's had enough of sufferings throughout her life. 

The pain just being there, watching her.. is indescribable. 

sorry for the lack of updates.