明明知道他不是那个他，却还执着，抱着一丝希望。

为什么那么傻？

When deep inside you know he's not the one, yet you still stubbornly hold on to that thought, that one tiny chance. Why are you so silly?

I've always believed that no one should deserve to be mistreated in a relationship.. never verbally or physically abused.. etc etc.. a girlfriend or wife, is for you to dote on, to love.. not for your needs.. Even after marriage, one should trust and respect the other. 

不要把一切当成理所当然。说得很简单，要做到却很难。

Everyone has a bottom line for everything. 

I try so hard, to convince myself otherwise.. fingers crossed my choice right at the start was right, but as time passes, you showed me otherwise. Life is cruel and reality is harsh.. I no longer feel like you cherish me.. you treat me the way I should rightfully be. Whenever I tried to tell you how I feel, you'd always push me away. I couldn't feel your desire to prove me my choice was right. 

我也有父母生的。I've done what I could.. but, have you spared a thought for me.. the things you've done.. 你真的爱我吗？ 

很多时候，我发现也许我们根本就不适合。每当你骂我，和我吵的时候。我一直都没说什么。。但总是被你误解。。心好痛。

Let's not talk about it anymore.

Recently, I have been suffering from sudden giddiness.. on and off.. pretty often.. I could feel my body feel tired easily..