Ileana's Birthday 2015 - Part II

This is my birthday dinner with my best friends.. or rather sisters from different parents. haha.

After such a long time, we finally get to meet up.. and I always feel.. the short hours we spend together are never enough.. there is so much to talk about.. to catch up with.. 

Hopefully we can meet up next month for christmas. :>

The cake and gift they got me. hehe.

So thankful. :> 

My favourite teapot soup and ern's dessert.

So, here's the full photo of the things I got for my birthday. The pandora charms and card from my dearest sister and brother in law. 

The 2 Moomins I got myself for my birthday, and the phone case from my best friends.

I have my own "moomin" family and these are twins :p. 

I took the opportunity to take photo of these items.

Some of the items my mum couldn't live without. Medicated oil.. her favourite cellphone cause its easier to use compared to smartphones. and the ipod we got her for present.

The headphones on the left was hers. She couldn't bear to use new stuffs and tend to keep them for god knows how many years..

My belated birthday cake from catandthefiddle. 

awesome! 

 Late night movie with bae. I was so freaking happy I jumped for joy after I snapped this.

Bae was like 'WTH is wrong with her?' LOL.

Really love this photo. You hardly get to see the mischievous side of me.

And last but not least.. no, this is not my car.. would love to have this nevertheless.. but the colour (at least fingers crossed close to) dad's car gonna turn out to be.

Am thinking of learning driving. I know I have been talking about this for months.. I'll be getting the books to start learning first and pass my theory tests first. Anyone wants to learn driving together, pretty pleaseeee?

Happy Birthday to myself - part I

It's my birthday.. but things are kinda different.

I am not looking forward to celebrating my birthday, neither do I feel happy about it.

少了妈妈问我：今年的生日你想要什么。少了妈妈祝我生日快乐。

Life will never be the same and I don't know how long more before I can accept reality, but one thing is definite.. I will always remember her. Every bits and pieces in life.

To be honest, I have wondered about marriage after her departure.. I never thought one day I would have to face this.. cause I have always painted the picture where she'll be there when I do.. but no, not anymore.. 

It is not easy getting over her departure.

I can accept the fact that one has to go some day, when time comes. I have always felt that when one reaches old age, there is no way you can avoid death. But, my mum hasn't reach old age yet. she almost retired.. but failed to enjoy a single day of her retirement. 

she has slogged all her life. 

There are so many bits and pieces of thoughts and feelings I will not blog about here cause I don't think its alright to share on a public space.. but I rather I do not exist, if I have to.. I wished my mum had a better life. She deserve better.

I haven't had enough of her, time's too short. 

Why did it happen when I wanted to bring my mum on a vacation.. the many things I wanted to do with her.. life without her is never the same anymore.

I gotta learn how to be independent, how to stay strong..

I am thankful that I still have my sister and she remembers my birthday.

I will update more on my birthday soon :> That's all for now.

【我的少女時代 Our Times】

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