Sometimes, I really don't understand humans.. 

or ladies or girls.. I don't know.

There are times when I by chance see this girl.. 

or a certain girl..

and then I go.. emo or depressed..

I envy her beauty, her happiness and her life.

I may not know her or them..

But from the way they portray.. 

I envy them.

A lot of times, I often thought to myself.. If only I could also be like them.. 

How good would that be.. I'm not wishing for a lot.. just wanna gain some weight.

10 kg would be enough.. :( 

I don't wanna wait till I'm old and ulgy.. 

I don't deserve any love or sacrifice. 

有时候，我真的不了解人类。

或是女人，女孩。。

偶尔，有时候我会偶遇一些女孩，

或是一个特定的女孩，

让我变得忧郁。

我羡慕她们的美，快乐，幸福与生活。

也许我不认识她们，可是从她们表现出来的，

我羡慕她们。

很多时候，我常常想，如果我也能和她们一样，那该有多好。

我没有奢望太多，只想增肥。。

10kg 也好。

我不想等到我又老又丑。

我不值得被爱或付出。