Ironically

I'm not sure, if anyone faces the same situation as me.. probably many others too.

That feeling.. that moment when you see a pretty girl on the street,

be it photos or reality..

sub-consciously you'd be wishing you look as gorgeous as her, as perfect as her.

came across this video in my FB newsfeed.

I stunned in front of my com after watching the video. 

Like Oh My Gosh..!

The before and after make up.. 

How she could use it to perfection.. what a pro.

search for [Get it beauty SELF] on youtube.

I believe almost every single man or woman, wants to look good.

No one'd be willing to be that ugly duckling. 

But sometimes some stuff aint in our control. 

Like the saying goes: there's no ugly woman in this world, only lazy women.

But still, 

I hate how judgemental people can turn out to be.. 

when they know nothing .. when they don't know you at all ..

and they start judging you.

Sometimes I'd really wish I could yell it out straight in their face,

I'm not what you think I am.. I just can't fking gain weight like others do.

So stop freaking judge or gossip about me like you know a whole lot about me.

I know many have advised me,

to ignore how others look at me, what others say about me..

I tried but to no avail.

I'm human and I have feelings.

I'm neither deaf nor blind. 

When you see something, How do you pretend you didn't ?

When you hear something, how do you turn back time and pretend you didn't ?

Especially when it hurts. 

I'm learning to accept myself for who I am, 

wanting to become a better me.

It's hard, but perhaps somehow I'll get there.. no one's perfect.

I want to learn how to use make up though.. 

when I get a chance.