DIY Dreamcatcher I made. First attempt.
Early Birthday Surprise by baby. Thank you so much.
Never thought you would ever throw a surprise for me.
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I'm feeling all emo right now..
self-reflection.
At times, I feel like I don't know myself at all.
Why does it seem so hard for me..
No, I'm not rude and ill-mannered..
I don't know why it's so hard for me.. to say it..
A simple, "hello xxx".. just a simple greeting.
Or, "excuse me could I ...."
why.
The voice just doesn't come out!
At times like this, I really hate myself.
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I've never talked to anyone about this.
But, I found out that at times, be it in an arguement or whatsoever..
I would choose to keep silent.. It's not that I am guilty or whatsoever.. But, again the same thing happen.. I could shout my lungs out deep inside, I just can't seem to voice it out.
I might be wronged or misunderstood but no matter how hard I try.. I just can't seem to voice out.
Not all the time, but at times.
Several times when baby asked me why.. neither could I voice out as well.. he got so mad, but i could only look at him.. answers his question deep inside.. tries to voice it out.. but.. nope, can't seem to.