first ambulance ride :o

so.. i was supposed to have my TEE Scope on Monday, 25th Aug 2014..

But fast without food and water since 11pm on 24th Aug 2014. My appointment was supposed to be on 11am.. but headed  there a little earlier as the nurse rang me to inform that I was the only patient scheduled that day..

Was worried this would happen but it really did.. I could not last till I reach NHC.. and fainted at city hall/tanjong pajar.. in the mrt. I stood, on the crowded train from Tampines, heading for Outram Park Mrt. I was lucky enough as my mum accompanied me. She immediately asked for help and I was then, sent to the SGH A&E, via ambulance.. my first ever experience :S .. the ride was a little bumpy ..

Can't express how lucky I am as it was only because I had to fast without food and drink, which my body couldn't take it.. and not my heart problem, even though I felt difficulty in breathing.. and lost vision. 

I am fine now.. but the Scope has been resheduled to a later date.. early Sept, and I hope I'll be fine this time round. Most likely gonna travel by taxi there this time.. I don't want a second time... gosh! 

I wanted to further my studies but she said, 

I don't have money for you to. Go to him if you want to.

So I decided I would not, so they would have money for old age and sickness.

Then, no more than weeks, less than a month..

she lent sis money to get a car.

Now she's complaining I didn't upgrade myself, how would I get myself a job.

The problem now isn't with my education. But that everytime I go for interview, I get rejected because I'm way too skinny.. even though that does not affect my work ability.

I'm trying hard, but it hurts so much every time I get rejected.

She went back on her words.

she said I would get freedom when I'm 21, no I did not.

She said the money she saved would be for me and my sis's studies. 

In the end the money's used up just for sis alone.

我没有计较什么。

可是为什么要这样一直逼我。

为什么。。

even when she knew I had depression and suicidal thoughts,

she was nonchalant about it.. 

is this how any parent would react..? 

If 1 day I lose myself,

The consequences would be dire.. i think.. 

Am wondering .. eating overnight food is bad?

I mean, are we not supposed to eat overnight food...?

In other words, any leftovers = throw???

pardon me but.. I have been having overnight food since idk how many years ago..?

was supposed to go for scope yesterday but doctor took leave so it's postponed to next monday again. 

sigh! 

-update on my heart condition-

I'm just wondering, if my heart condition would actually "get better" .. on its own.. without surgeries etc.. cause, recently I am actually bewildered that I am not as breathless when I walk the bridge etc.. say past year, after a short 10-15 min walk to nearby Tampines Mall and back, I'd be like super out of breath and like just flat.. out of battery.. and I'd have to rest.. but seems better recently..

I could actually walk to the back (tampines mall .. 10-15 min walk).. get some stuff.. and then walk home.. no rest in between.. and head over opposite to get some stuff done and head home, no rest in between either.. SUPERB! :D .. 

I know this may be something so normal to others .. but its not for me. So, pardon me if you think I'm like making a big fuss out of it. 

Lastly, sharing with you peeps.. Razer Kraken Pro.. absolute love!

SUPER CHIO RIGHT! 

I want the red. pfft! 

cake craves ("\(=^o^=)/")

Helloooo! (=^T^=)/")

So, Sharing this with my readers which is good for those who drink herbal tea.

Make sure you don't get the wrong one!

*click on the image to enlarge*

This ring from Love & Co ♥

They have prettier designs but I don't know which collection its under. so pretty :3

Most of the times, I wish I could just order a cake, and have it as and when I like.. :( ..

These cakes are so pretty & yummy... Esp the 3rd pic, Kinder Bueno Candies Cake..

http://mysisterbakes.com/